Hey Chilluns. Welllllll, shee-it. Looks like I am hospital bound. I get to go lie down for hours on end and get needles stuck in my arm dripping medicine into my veins. Here's the funny thing--I am actually almost (ALMOST) looking forward to it. Those of you who have known me through my other hospital visits know what a startling and disturbing revelation this is. Well, okay, truthfully I'm not really looking forward to it at all--I still frigging HATE hospitals; it's just that I am harboring this unreasonable hope that being hospitalized is going to make me feel all better right away and then all of my life's problems will be solved. I know this is irrational. My doctor even told me on the phone that I shouldn't think that a few days in the hospital is going to magically make me back up to 100% operating capacity. Weeks, it might take, he said. Weeks! Jesus god. I know he is right, but as I said before, numerous times, and probably 10 times just in the last hour and a half: I am tired of being sick.
The problem is most likely this: you see, there are these gross little microbeasties--yes, the technical term is bacteria, but I believe microbeasties is much more appropriate in this case--called pseudomonas (aeruginosa is the species I’ve got). It’s a very common strain of bacteria. For people with normally functioning lungs it doesn’t present any sort of problem. But for folks like me who don’t have working cilia, or for people with CF, pseudomonas is a ratty little curse. Once you are an adult it is much harder to get rid of; in fact, it usually can’t be completely eradicated once you are colonized as a grown-up (children seem to be able to get rid of it completely with treatment). I have had this stuff for at least 7 years now, and every once in a while it rears its slimy green head and makes me sick. This time it is just taking a lot longer for me to recover than I’m used to, and I’m not taking it very well.
As far as the impending hospital arrival goes, I'm not sure when I will be checking in. I'll update you as soon as possible. Hopefully somebody can loan me a laptop or an ipod so I don't go out of my mind while I'm in there. At least I have two new books to read!
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